mother india

Boys being attached to their moms is a common phenomenon. i mean girls are like friends with sharing everything and all but no offence but son-mother relationships have a special bond...atleast that's the case with me.I really feel proud being the son of my maa .I mean i really salute her commitment , things she has gone through, coping with them,caring for each and every one of us .Its not one of those mama's boy thing but when i look back i really feel aw-inspired by her . And now with my di gone and she being all alone i feel bad coz i can try to fill the void yet i can't be a daughter to her,i accept and acknowledge it...moreover she's just a phone call away but still there remains a void.she's always been the sacrificial kind...towards everyone ..i dont really feel great about this now..i mean u cant be sacrificing always,throughout your life...it really frustrates me ..yet i feel helpless ..guess she's been conditioned like that..and perhaps each and every mother has been...i sometimes nag her for being like that and call her MOTHER INDIA...but seriously i feel like giving her back what all she has done.....Sometimes i feel incapable of myself..i dont want her to be like that..yesterday was mothers day..i am not that much into these kinda thing..yet still these things do make u realise importance of people..so just to seek a pov i asked my mate about his favourite memory bout his mom and he too told bout instances where she forgo her share so that her son would get more ..its too typical yet u feel wud u be able to do the same if given an option...perhaps u need to be a parent to feel that way ..
i remember a time when i was particularly low and i just requested her to give me a hug ...and i can assure u the problems may have persisted but i felt swell...and this a plea to anyone who reads this...if u ever feel down just look for a hug from a loved one and hold her/him tight ...am sure u will feel the change..seriously and i have been at both the ends of these hugs...it really makes a difference if done with feelings..people often think its like weird huggin an all ..its not a thing grown ups do...some think of them as a chore and do it for the sake of it .....please do not
Its wierd coz when i thought about writing this i was like all geared up but now i dont find words... its more about feeling than expressing..its about being unconditional..its about selflessness..its about seeing a tear and your urge to change the whole godamn world in order to make it better for her..
i only have this song which i wish to dedicate to maa...this like so great..the song...usually its like when i like a song i check out its lyrics and meaning and all but this song is different for me...there are no denotations and connotations..its just typical of wat i mean for her...and i really dont care if i am wrong