.....enter sandman

life has its own facets ,you really don't know when would it show the next one .i thinks that's. life ,it stuns you in a split second and smiles and says 'GOTCHA!'.Although there are few signs ,like the silence before apocalypse. You are made to realize that it aint for granted and you shud better mend your ways .sometime you have to face the music but luckily for some life does give a chance and demonstrates the upheaval on somebody else. You can only show your pity, sympathy for the scapegoat but deep down you ought to accept it that you are happy, happy for being fortunate enough to be on the fence, sitting and learning from others experience, down the line one really has that frustration, disgust, thinking why does life needs to be that stern, although you may not be the victim, but seeing the hardships really does raises your conscience. Reasoning starts to grope u, and the conclusion is –why cant the world be a bit of wonderland we expect it to be, why adversities are omnipresent. Maybe its all like life transitory and every teaching just learned gets evaporated in the daily hustle bustle. Although u maybe reminded of hard earned wisdom as u hear a knock and maybe again enters sandman….

VENTING OUT-WORST DAYS................

VENTING OUT- WORST DAYS AND MORE TO COME
I CANT BELIEVE ,ITS HAPPENING TO ME, NO GODAMN NO….I NEVER EVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE BORROWING SAM’S POST HEADING.WELL NOW I DO FEEL THAT CURRENTLY I’M IN THE WORST PHASE I HAVE FACED FOR QUITE A LONG TIME.BLOW AFTER BLOW , I AM CORNERED IN THE RING GETTING PUNCHES,FROM LEFT ,FROM RIGHT,BENUMBING ME ,WELL I STILL AM UNCONSCIOUS, CANT BE THE EVER SO JUDGEMENTAL ME NOW COZ I REALLY CANN’T UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON….AM I JYNXED OR WHAT ?THESE HAVE BEEN THE BADDEST [WELL I DON’T WANT TO WRITE WORST COZ ITS TOO SHORT TO DESCRIBE WHAT I AM GOING THRU ]TWO NIGHTS AND A DAY TO BE PRECISE.IT ALL STARTED YESTERDAY NIGHT ALTHOUGH SYMPTOMS HAD BEEN SEEN MUCH EARLIER, WELL WONT LIKE TO DISCUSS WAT HAPPENED,AND TODAY ..MAN IT TURNED OUT TO BE A FREAKIN DISASTER,GOT UP LATE ,WELL THAT’S MY USUAL TENDENCY,REACHED SCHOOL LATE BUT ESCAPED PUNISHMENT BY A WHISKER,NEVER MIND,THAN ….COMMUNICATION GAP,TENTATIVENESS,WHATEVER …MADE ME SAD,THEN FRENZ ADDING TO MY PLIGHT. I AM MADE TO REMEMBER A SONG BY STRINGS………’KARE MERA INTEZAAR MERA BICHRAA YAAR’……….AND MORE RECENTLY ANOTHER ONE FROM DOSTANA ‘TOO HAI TO I‘LL BE ALRIGHT’ ….WELL COULD NOT SEE ANYBODY….GOT TO LEARN FEW HARSH REALITIES,MADE TO REALISE THAT I WAS A MERE TISSUE PAPER TO SWIPE SOMEONE’S TEAR…JUST A PILLOW TO CRY UPON …TRULY A FAIR WEATHER FRIEND OR WAS IT?FIRT I THOUGHT OF IT AS A JOKE BUT SLOWLY GOT TO REALISE THAT CANT BELIEVE I’M A FOOL AGAIN.HAD FEW NICE MOMENTS TOO,LIKE ENJOYING WITH MATES IN BREAK,AND IN FREE PERIOD,BUT THEN THAT EMPTINESS,THAT PANG OF BEING SINGLE AND NOT ABLE TO MAKE MY MIND WHETHER TO MINGLE……FRENZ AGAIN ,HAPPY IN THEIR OWN WORLD,THAT’S OK,I’M NO ONE TO BLAME……SLEPT FOR FEW MINUTES,WORKED WONDERS FOR ME,I WAS REVITALISED BUT THAN FEAR OF TOMMORROW’S TUITIONS,AFTERMATH OF YESTERDAY NIGHT, AND TO TOP IT ALL HAVING TO SEE ALL BIG FOUR EXCEPT FUCKING SCREWED ARSENAL GETTING GREAT WINS………………CAN’T BELIEVE THAT…………………………WELL I SHOULDN’T BE EXPECTING ANYTHING FROM ANYBODY…FEEL VINDICATED,ASHAMED YET FREE OF WAT I HAVE WRITTEN,I DON’T THINK THAT ALL MY SENSES ARE PROPERLY FUNCTIONING, THAT’S WHY I AM JUST BLURTING OUT WAT I FEEL. THE FUTURE TOO LOOKS GLOOMY…..GOT FUCKING HELL OF TUITIONS AND THAT SON OF A BITCH HAS GIVEN ULTIMATUM TO ALL TO COME PREPARED….THINK THESE DARK CLOUDS WILL PERSIST TILL DECEMBER ….NEED TO MEND MY WAYS … BUT TODAY LEMME JUST VENT OUT …I FEEL LIKE JOTTING EVERY SHIT OF A THING THAT TOOK PLACE AND BLABBERING TILL I SLEEP…..BLAH ….BLAHBLAHBLAH]
WELL AT LAST PLZ THIS IS A SERIOUS REQUEST NOT TO POST ANY COMMENT ON THIS COZ I CARE A DAMN WHAT U FEEL ABOUT THIS POST….AND ETCETRA ETCETRA .THIS WAS A WAY TO PUKE OUT WHAT WAS INSIDE AND I KNOW I HAVE WRITTEN FEW STUPID THINGS WHICH I’LL BE ASHAMED OF LATER ON…WELL AEROSMITH DID PENNED IT WRITE .. ‘I AM LOSING MY MIND…..YOU GOT ME CRAZY’ [SORRY GUNNERS]